I was born in a big Mauritian family with loving parents who did everything to make me happy. And being born in a Mauritian family is what made me struggle the most with my body.
First, when I say at home i mean that it was mostly my entourage. I remembered, when I was around 7 or 8 we had a “family” meeting and one of them picked me and made fun of my weight, I cried a lot this day.
The struggle with my weight started here. Nobody took my side not even my parents. Because you know: you don’t have to make stories etc.
And by not taking my side things got worse. Every family meeting was a hardship.
I started to hide myself. The happy and cute child slowly disappeared. I went from wearing dresses to wear large shirt and tracksuits every day. Soon it became jeans but with long t-shirt covering my belly and but during middle school. Back then, some kids made fun of me, of course, but I think it was because I was hiding.
In high school, jeans appeared because I forced myself to wear them, to become a new “me” since nobody knew me but i started gaining confidence when I had my first boyfriend but it is another story.
The day I stopped hiding myself was during last summer. I started wearing skirts, shorts. I felt beautiful and it wasn’t because a weight loss. It was because of some pll : my best friends and Ashley Graham. It took me 10 years to stop hiding who I am. To start feeling beautiful, powerful. And I stopped to give a damn about what those ppl telling my parents I should lose weight.
“Back Fat, I see you popping over my bra today but that’s alright I’m going to choose to love you. And Thick Thighs, you are just so sexy you can’t stop rubbing each other. That’s alright, I’m gonna keep you. Cellulite I have not forgotten about you: I’m going to love you even though you want to take over my whole bottom half but you’re a part of me.” – Ashley Graham
Today, I won’t say that I’m 100% ok with my body image but I’m trying to be myself because starving yourself don’t mean that you are healthy. And today I want you to look at your reflection and say I love you. Love yourself because you are going to spend your whole life with yourself.
Here is one of the videos that helped me the most: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xAgawjzimjc